There is no reason why I would start my blog with this song.
But this painful song just hit me at Carrefour and yea.
Even if it is outta place for my post later,here it is.

There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things thatI don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you to look me in the eyes

It's alright, I'm OK
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get caried away

It's alright, I'm OK
I think God can explain
I'm relieved
I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet

The sent of vasoline in the summertime
The feel of an icecube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger
Than both of us
Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry


It's alright, I'm OK
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get caried away

It's alright, I'm OK
I think God can explain
I'm relieved
I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet

I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed

It's alright, I'm OK
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get caried away

It's alright, I'm OK
I think God can explain
I'm relieved
I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet

I think God can explain
I think God can explain
I think God can explain

Splendor -I think God can explain

There are alot of stars(even though it is still few) hanging on the skies outside my house tonight.
The night is serene,beautiful and then...sad, yet hope lingers on.
What's your wish upon the stars?

I think I have been repeating that lately there is this unknown gnawing pinch I felt.
Do I not know the reason or I dare not acknowledge?
I refused to answer.

What is it?
What is it?

What do you fear?
An unknown future(or rather a future that you scare to foresee) or a painful past?

Lemme tell you this.
A past no matter how painful,time can lighten the scars(though not erase).
And the only reason that why time cant erased the scar is because we,our hearts refused to let time do so.
We didnt we cant forget when in actual fact we didnt really want to.
If you can forget what you have studied so hard for the exams after exams,why cant you do the same for 'it'?
It is just the matter of what your heart wants inside,I guess.

I may be wrong and this is really ok.
I am just expressing my opinions,not asking for consensus.

A future that is unknown do sets a fear that grips no matter how silly you think it is.
I've tried convincing myself to indulge in the present and I am doing it.
But again where is tomorrow when you havent thought of it today?
Right?

What you feel at this moment may affect what is gonna take place in the future.

It could be a wise move that you are making this moment,but too may be a bad(and really stupid) move you had made yesterday for tomorrow.

So what's up with the yesterday,today and tomorrow ideology?
(When you really cant do anything about it.)

I guess that is me.
This is me.
Jason thinks that I always think too much.
It's not that I like or doing it on purpose.

On some things in life,I doesnt like to think.
I would love to go with the moment too.
I love indulging in the present especially if it's lovely.(Like who doesn't?)

But it is the inner me...That feels and thinks all about the stuff that is deemed unnecessary when you have to be realistic and practical.
Which is true...

What is the point of being Shakespear when you dont live in that kinda world.

I watched "A lot like love" today.
Like Rick would tell Oliver..."This is your life.Time doesn't wait for you to get back on your feet."

It is right.
This is the real life.
We are not living in a tale whereby Snow White woke and hugged the gallant prince who saved her life BUT was a stranger to her eyes.
In reality,if you were Snow White...Would you immediately hugged and married this stranger whom you never met before?(And then really live happily ever after?)

You get what I mean?

If it is the soft and emotion rich who craved for romance always would simply take the fairy tale.
What's true is seldom beauttiful as I was told.
I guess that is what I am afraid to face one day.

To be hurt sucks alot of coz BUT I am more afraid to be the sinner.
This is not nobelity,but selfishness in a way.
Who are you trying to protect?
Not the other party from hurt but really yourself from the guilt.

But...
If every Adam and Eve (I am ruling out the Adam & Adam, and Eve & Eve cases first) are attached by this invisible string,there is no running away from it.
You may have met a few wrong Adam or Eve along the way.
You may have hurt some Adams or Eves intentionally or unintentionally along the way.

Even two wrongs doesnt make one right.
(I dunno why I used this phrase but it just popped to my mind)

But believe me...
Even what is right today may be wrong tomorrow.
At least for today,I did not lied.

I am not hinting anything.
I am just venting my melancholic emotions so I will feel none of this tomorrow.

I quote this from the very first page of a book from Ji Mi.(Which I randomly picked and flipped at Kinokuniya today.)

A direct translation from Chinese.

Because love cannot be clasp.

Thus humans keep creating merchandises that made people to believe in love.

Shunzi's song is playing on my radio now...

"When the moon falls in your eyes,I know the sun has set.
The fire still burns within me since the day we met.
I know my heaven wont be so complete,you can make it real.
I wont let this chance go by,I can see ,I can feel you...
When the moon falls in your eyes,I know the sun has set...
The fire still burns within me..within me.."

(ps:I can sing this song pretty well,I guess.I can sing le.Was from the choir but I dare not sing infront of you(any of you).Hee.)